If the person you could say I shadow and admire didn’t give into the two most important people in her life, pleading her to return to Alaska from her first semester of college in Arizona
So that she would restart her life in her hometown where her family, best friend, and boyfriend were all still waiting to be reunited with her
Unknowingly where she’d meet the man she knew she would marry at first glance, my dad
Who carried me in his arms from Providence Hospital as he also did with my sister two years later through that vague memory of a door I know as the Brookview house still standing in Anchorage
Where we eventually left so my mom could teach history at the high school she herself attended known to us as Chugiak
That was nearby our new home in Eagle Wood in our little town called Eagle River
Where I met my first true and life altering friends: Hali , Cassie , Lindsy , and Laura at the age of five where most of my life was written; the Babrof house
When I shared those worriless days of playing in sunshine, fights that seemed so important, and memories that I remember being my lessons and considered these girls my sisters
And attending Alpenglow Elementary with them where I met the people I share a classroom with today that I may or may not have a personal connection with, but wish I did
Or if my parents didn’t decide to take me to Joy Lutheran Pre School at the age of two where I would desperately show off for that one shy boy I thought would never notice me
Who eventually became my high school boyfriend of three years that will always remain in my heart as my first love that I compare everyone else to
That introduced me to one of my best friends on accident that 8th grade year only to find out that she’d leave junior year from Eagle River High School
Where I am now a senior that has attended the first four opening years with her mother, know as the Principal to others
Who persuaded me to take risks and join groups like Student Government and sports teams as a freshman
When I found out the impossible the previous summer that my parents would be getting divorced
So I could spend my high school years meeting people like Sarah, Jackie, and Christian who help me through those hard and complicated days
And I could decide to escape that every day life with my dad and sister to go to Reno, Nevada and visit my favorite Grammy
Where I now am considering attending college and starting the next chapter or potential lifetime with new people that I have yet to meet but still return to see my other family I have grown up with and love dearly in Alaska
Then I can finally believe my mother’s advice, the advice that I think I knew all along in why everything happens for a reason
So that now I can decide what I really know for sure and know I can’t expect things to stay the same whether I want them to or not
That I can never prevent changes from happening.
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