shadow poem

I Became A Tourguide

If a man would have not been born to have the aggression of a fighter,
to cross hidden paths with a women with the spirit of a dove,
who would finally meet to be love at first sight,
I would have not been there to step into that kitchen that had been under a long construction process,
to see a man measuring cabinet dimensions,
who introduced himself and told me about, his daughter, who is my age, applying to be a tourguide and gave me the date to show up for the interview,
I said, "okay",
and if I would not have gone on that vacation,
which helped me redefine my dreams again where my dad and I were left flightless for over seven busy days of homework and training passing,
and if I would not have returned home to be engraved into a textbook like a frantic lunatic,
to settle my mind with the done grades and acceptance,
I would have never traveled everyday as enlightened as all my travels to meet people wise people and frustrating people,
to gain the confidence I can be sure about,
I would never have found what I was looking for in my faith,
to love God unflinchingly,
to read the signs that could slap me in the face,
to ponder about what God has in store for me,
I would have never wanted to be here resting in my healthy skin, in my nurturing home,
studying for school and excited to learn and thinking about all the possibilities my future has in store.