shadow poem yo!

"A Few Small Accidents"

If the young basketball star had not been hurt
before state and forced to stay homewith the budding lab student and so got
married because of a little accident who is my uncle
who went off on a scholarship to the frozen north
and if he had not inspired the second accident to follow
to the future she would not have met a man of the mountain
who would not have been there if he had not been running away from a home full of expectations and neglect
and if they had not woken up in the same bed one morning
and if he had not of been afraid to say three small words back to my mother
if he had not left for spring break to visit his family with no physical contact
he would not have returned to a woman full of expectations
and if he had not refrained from speaking to her for weeks after wards
she would not have told it like it was and
if he had would not marry her now she'd go find someone else
and if they had not been married they never would have ended up in a love for the ages
of which my father's parents did not approve of my polish mother
and if they had approved of her they would not have been forced to move to a small town
and if i had not been born in the small sheltered town in upper peninsula Michigan
where my mothers parents lived
my now old basketball star grandfather might not have ended my grandmother's career
and made her marry him and if he had not have divorced her after her year long battle with cancer
my mother and father would not have needed to escape back to the frozen north
and if my sister and I had not grown up exposed to less hostile things we would not have had greater opportunities and so inspired me to become an anthropologist
and lead me to never think about relationships or hurt
of which I gave my heart away too readily to an east boy who then left me broken and
if I had not turned to volleyball which became everything
I would not have been shocked when the volleyball team left me behind
I would not have turned away from the world who left me with nothing for so long
and if I had not have been so lost I would not have left Dylan behind
and if he had not have made being with him so unbearable
I never would have been forced to look for someone new who I might not have found
during Mr.Miller's AK studies class
where I might not have lost myself in new feelings
with someone who can fulfill my dreams and
wants to live stronger than my parents and grow like their love has.